I have 2 almost teenagers that are complex and demaning in ever more intricate and puzzling ways. I have a 5 year old, recently diagnosed with Aspergers Syndrome that can -and does- reduce me to tears almost daily. I have a just turned 2 year old that is everything that is wonderful and terrible about toddlers all at once.And then I have a drama queen 4 year old,and a very quiet and sensetive 7 year old that can so easily get pushed to the background.
Money is a struggle and a worry. I hurt so much that I can't give them everything I would like. We can't afford days out, or holidays. I have to stagger buying them new shoes.I am trying to sort out returning to work, but it is slow progress....and even then we wont be that much better off once we have paid childcare.In truth things have been getting to me.
I have so much to be thankful for....and I am...but somedays, when I am so exhausted I can barely function, I loose sight of all the good and get bogged down in all the demands I seem to be failing to meet at the moment.
So from today onwards I am going to renew my efforts to be positive.I am going to remind myself of all the good and wonderful things in my life. I am going to take time to look after myself more, so that I can take better care of everyone else. And I am going to remind myself that my New Years Resolution was to ENJOY life more!!
A few happy moments from recently!
Getting out and about in the sun!!!
And Birthday smiles from my little April Fool!